rest in peace..

..pano kung 48yrs mo ng hindi nakikita ang kapatid, kaibigan, kamag-anak, o kakilala mo? tas biglang may darating sa bahay nyo at sasabihin nyang "wala na sha" (literally and figuratively). ano kayang mararamdaman mo? yan ang nararamdaman ng mudra ko ngayon. her younger brother passed away last week. pero hanggang ngayon hindi pa sha nakakapunta. nakakalungkot dahil ganito rin scenario na nangyari 3 yrs ago, when her older brother died. pareho lang silang nandito sa manila pero hindi sila madalas magkita. siguro minsan, ganun talaga pag may family ka na. before mamamatay yung tito ko, hinanap nya agad si nay. siguro dahil sila na lang natitirang magkapatid. hindi pa makapunta mudra ko kasi gusto nya may madala shang anda kahit papano pag dating nya dun. hindi kami lumaki na close sa relatives ng nanay ko, yung iba nakalimutan na namin yung mga mukha at pangalan nila, yung iba hindi na talaga namin kilala. pero excited pa rin silang makita kaming lahat. eto na naman magkikita na naman kami pero hindi para magsaya o magreunion kundi para magluksa.. how sad di ba.

:(

september..

here comes the rain again.falling from the stars.drenched in my pain again.becoming who we are.as my memory rests.but never forgets what I lost.wake me up when september ends. --green day



isang taon na pala yun, hindi ko na namalayan..

=)

" ingatan mo sarili mo, bihira lang yung mga katulad mo"

this text made me smile the whole day..

kaleidoscope world..

So many faces, so many races
Different voices, different choices
Some are mad, while others laugh
Some live alone with no better half
Others grieve while others curse
And others mourn behind a big black hearse
Some are pure and some half-bred
Some are sober and some are wasted
Some are rich because of fate and
Some are poor with no food on their plate
Some stand out while others blend
Some are fat and stout while some are thin
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most
Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin' round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world
Some are great and some are few
Others lie while some tell the truth
Some say poems and some do sing
Others sing through their guitar strings
Some know it all while some act dumb
Let the bassline strum to the bang of the drum
Some can swim while some will sink
And some will find their minds and think
Others walk while others run
You can't talk peace and have a gun
Some are hurt and start to cry
Don't ask me how don't ask me why
Some are friends and some are foes
Some have some while some have most
Every color and every hue
Is represented by me and you
Take a slide in the slope
Take a look in the kaleidoscope
Spinnin' round, make it twirl
In this kaleidoscope world

----- francis m.